Embracing Self-Love: Feeling Unlovable to Letting Go and Being Worthy

I faced some tough truths yesterday. It was about letting go, especially of the guilt from my past. I needed to remind myself that I’m worthy of love and good things.

This all stemmed from a long-held belief that being vulnerable leads to hurt.

So, I avoided being open and honest. But living like that goes against what I’ve come to understand and love about my life: “Everything happens as it should.” It means things will unfold as they will, no matter what I do.

I’ve done a lot of healing in my life, but the fear of getting hurt still lingers, even subconsciously. It’s like a shield I put up when people express affection towards me. I use humor and teasing as a defense mechanism, even when I feel the same way inside.

Don’t get me wrong, I love making people laugh, but I also realize it’s a way for me to cope with discomfort.

So, I took some time to reflect on this yesterday.

My intention this year was to heal from past relationship traumas, unlearn certain behaviors, and mend my broken heart. I’ve made a lot of progress. When I get triggered, I know it’s time to reflect, be compassionate to myself, and let go of what’s holding me back.

I’m grateful for how far I’ve come.

I’m a loving person, but one thing I’ve become more intentional about is not abandoning myself. Yes, if people I care about leave my life, I’ll feel sad, but I never want to place those relationships above the one I have with myself.

I come first, and I’m not apologizing for it.

I also understand when someone else prioritizes their relationship with themselves. How we love ourselves sets the tone for how we love others.

Will I face heartbreak in future relationships?

Probably, but one thing I’m sure of is that I deserve a healthy relationship, one where I feel safe, secure, and loved. Ironically, I have that in my life right now. It’s a powerful reminder that I experience real love from both myself and the people around me.

That’s enough proof that I am worthy of love.

I’m healing every day.

I felt unlovable for years, which is sad, but I’ve done some profound work to learn to love myself again. I remind myself that I am enough just as I am, without needing to earn love or do anything special to be loved.

If this is you too maybe it’s time to reflect on why you think you are unlovable, so we can all heal and live a life where we are full of love, and grounded in ourselves.

Thank for reading.

Cinderella

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